Wingyeung Szeto
Tell us a little about yourself.
I was born and raised in Wellington as a first generation Christian Chinese New Zealander. My dad hails from Hong Kong, and my mum from Malaysia. They both moved to New Zealand for university, found God and each other, settled here in Aotearoa, and then along came my three siblings and me.
After studying in Palmerston North, I moved to the Clutha district, South Otago where I live and work now as a rural vet. I work with “salt of the earth” farmers and their cows, dogs, and cats (among other animals), out of a large energetic practice; I also live by the beach where I can dive, hunt, surf, and generally adventure very close by. My church is a campus of an Auckland pentecostal church where there is a growing young adult community. When I am not in the work, outdoors, or church community, I spend time with my girlfriend Emily who’s based in Wellington.
Could you tell us one story about how you’ve found freedom with God?
At Summer Conference this year we had a time devoted to the practice of lament. It was moving. I believe I am naturally a deep thinker but have found myself closed to feeling things deeply, I think for fear of feeling more hurt than I can bear, or raising more questions than answers, or just in the interest of time and efficiency during the business of daily life. Whether it’s an internal conundrum or world-wide crisis, it often feels like too great a can of worms to open, especially in an already loud and opinionated pluralistic world which seems to demand you defend your position on this or that. Because of this, it’s easy to be passive and not engage with the questions.
To hear that we join with God—that he feels our emotions, and speaks first in prayer—was good news to me. We don’t have to fear facing the hurt, injustice and tragedy, doubting if there’s any end point once we start. Instead, to engage honestly with what is truly happening within and around us is the first step in seeing shalom in the situation. We can trust him to hold all that we cannot carry, or process. We can rest knowing that Jesus bore the weight of the world on the cross. Even if no straight answers or solutions come, we can rest knowing that we participated with God in the first step of reconciliation: acknowledging the hurt and wrong. And through journeying with him, we are brought to renewed hope in God, and we can see the joy of the Lord brought to the situation both now, and in the not-yet.
Where now is God calling you to trust him?
Following this, I am focusing on facing my own deep, and sometimes hidden, emotions and fears when it comes to navigating my own life decisions. I am learning to lament, and entrust these fears to God in vulnerable honesty. Rather than trying to fight doubt just with logic, I am starting where I am stuck—unveiling what truly bugs and worries me. I’m learning to surrender the things I am holding tight, so I can begin to make peaceful spirit-filled decisions with resolve. Through truly acknowledging them, and allowing myself to hold them before our good, good Father, I hope to be able to take captive every thought and make them obedient to Christ. I believe I am also accepting the invitation to allow him to speak into what scares me—remembering that God will sit with me, truly see me, and speak first.
Something else I have been inspired to trust God in is my own engagement with the reconciliation of the peoples of our land, Aotearoa. Since having my eyes opened to some of the true, inspiring, and also heartbreaking stories of the beginnings of our nation, I have begun to devote some of my own time to learning more of the histories of what really happened: to put away my arrogance and ignorance; my heart honestly breaks a little. I don’t have many clear ideas of how to respond yet, but for now personal education and acknowledgement seems like a start—and I am trusting God to lead me further.
If you sat down with yourself as you were a year ago, what encouragement would you have?
You’re going to love reading fiction again! Way better than social media.